Stars and Candles

There are people in life who are like stars: bright, brilliant, a shining beacon to a lot of people, guiding lost souls over the vast, dark oceans at night, and.. distant. Distant stars that can never be reached. Stars admired by many, yet alone in the vast, cold sky. Such stars give inspiration in dreams, been wished upon, and cried upon. A countless multitude bearing the wishes, dreams, problems, and pains of an ocean of people..

Then there are people who are like candles. They bring light and warmth and a soft glow in the dark. Unlike stars, candles give off less brilliance, yet stars are so far away that candles radiate light much more brightly. But candles are fleeting things. They burn out after some time. And they are also easy to put out; a strong gust and they lose the fire. So candles must be sheltered..

Two different types of people. One distant yet constant, another close yet evanescent. They both share a quality that is illumination, but are so different in nature. And one cannot help but need both in life. The absence of stars would darken the sky and diminish it's beauty, and the absence of candles would darken the world and extinguish the warmth of fire.

Two types of people.. which one are you? Which one am I to you? A bit of both perhaps. For we are all the stuff of stars, yet burn for a short while in life. And oftentimes, we leave an after-image in the eyes of others, an image that comes when they close their eyes, but soon fade..

Just a Dream

Last night I had this really vivid dream. I dreamt that I had just bought a new car, complete with fancy gadgets and a classy interior. It was a sportscar, I think. But the best part was that I could drive it.. I actually knew how to drive!! The dream was so normal, besides the car being soo expensive, that I really thought it was real. And when I woke up this morning, it took me a minute to realize that it was a dream, I had no car, and I didn't know how to drive. Talk about rude awakenings and in-your-face realizations.. I did believe the dream to be true, and that waking up was just another day of it. It sucks...

Under the weather

I'm feeling a bit under the weather again, and with it everything else. Lately I've had nothing to do. That's very bad. It makes me extra aware how sucky everything can be. Most of the things I've once enjoyed doing barely makes me smile.. just feels like I've lost something.. a lot of things, lately. Maybe they're just small things I notice here and there, but when they add up, it feels pretty big, like the world's collapsing and I'm getting smothered by all the weight of it. Funny though, what I'm saying all sounds familiar. I've said it before, I think.

Life just seems too short doing nothing. I spend my days sitting in front of the TV playing the same game, watching the same movie.. it's so monotonous. There's no method to the madness anymore. Life bites. I feel really burned out for doing nothing. Like what I wrote before, lamps without oil, burning myself out.

And everyone else? Nobody here.. It sucks to feel alone when you are alone..