Sic erat in fatis

This should suffice for what I want to say:

O fortuna velut luna statu variabilis, semper crescis aut decrescis; vita detestabilis nunc obdurat et tunc curat ludo mentis aciem...

Sors immanis et inanis, rota tu volubilis, status malus, vana salus semper dissolubilis, obumbrata, et velata michi quoque niteris...

Sors salutis et virtutis michi nunc contraria, est affectus et defectus semper in angaria..

Fortune plango vulnera stillantibus ocellis quod sua michi munera subtrahit rebellis..

In fortune solio sederam elatus, prosperitatis vario flore coronatus; quicquid enim florui felix et beatus, nunc a summo corrui gloria privatus.

"Maybe"

This entry was inspired after reading a few blogs and thinking about past experiences.

If I could enumerate a list of words that have so much power to change the world, one of the highest on the list would have to be "maybe." For such a simple 5-letter word, it's very strong. By adding it to a thought, it could transform it into an idea as ambiguous as a cloud. Maybe brings about hesitation. Maybe brings about doubt. Maybe brings about inaction. Maybe can either destroy hopes, if one is pessimistic, or raise it up, if one is optimistic. Whole wars are won and lost on assumptions of "maybe." People have lived and died because of "maybe." Risk itself is based on the paradigm of "maybe."

As for me. Maybe has been a troublesome word. As a confessed pessimistic, "maybe" brings about a sort of paranoia. There are a lot of things I haven't said and done because I was afraid, or am afraid, of what "maybe" might bring. Take for example a simple thing as reciting in class. A "maybe" whispers to me that my answer might be wrong, and so I don't raise my hand. And the result is getting 0.8% out of 10% in class recitation. In bigger things, "maybe" is present too. When I like a person, there's so much I can't do because of "maybe." Maybe nothing will happen. Maybe she doesn't like you back. Maybe, maybe, maybe.. It can get pretty frustrating when you're frozen into inaction by all those maybe's buzzing in your head.

And why is "maybe" so strong? It's because it feeds on the imagination. Imagination is limitless, you know. But it can severely limit us, just by adding that one simple word - maybe.

Malabo

Ang dami kong nasa isip ngayon. Hindi ko na alam kung ano ang uunahin kong isipin. Malamang sasabihin niyo na unahin ko dapat yung importante, pero ano ang importante? Diba nasa isipan din yon at walang katiyakan? Sabihin na nating pag-aaral ang importante sa ngayon, o di kaya buhay-pamilya, o mga kaibigan, o kung anu-anong mga bagay kaya? Wala akong maisasagot sa ngayon. Kaya nga nag-iisip eh. Masasagot ko lamang yan kapag naisip ko na ang kasagutan. Kung nalalabuan kayo, mas nalalabuan ako. Marami talagang di tiyak sa mundo..

Change topic. Today I slept after lunch. It's not something I normally do. If fact, I've been doing things lately that I don't normally do, like during the Alumni Homecoming yesterday for instance... I'm gonna regret losing at the game for a very long time.. >_<